Tuesday, June 20, 2006
analyze this
these weeks i've been talking with a friend, someone i met again before my winter trip, ain't that amazing how people evolves with all that they have to go through? well, that was what happened then and it was great to find out that we still had each other for good conversations, support, jokes and that insanity which becomes part of yourself after you're exposed to all that stuff that takes you out of this reality without being illegal, hey! i mean mangas, comics, anime, movies, etc, etc.
Well, this fella has been going out with a girl since then, and things haven't been working out as well as both of them wanted, they've realised none of them want to "lose this time", she doesn't want to admit they're in something more than "going out" (even when she acts like she wants it) and he refuses to admit he's thinking much further than just a "bf/gf status". But they're stuck with each other... to be rejected by the other and swallow that loneliness (again)
It's almost like the song says, they're under each other's thumb... conformism, restless conformism, preffering a "better than nothing" than being on themselves, forget about a "good shag" almost every night and someone who'll hold them when they're sleeping... sounds almost sweet, isn't it? but what if there are a lot of things unsaid of if your partner doesn't want to change things that hurt you and themselves too?... as far as i know (and he realised it too) it's like a hideout from all those things they don't want to accept of the world, and basically, of themselves.
So that's how i've become some sort of psychologist, without anyone's permission but my own, listening, asking and realising once again that people, boys and girls, women and men are looking basically for the same pack "someone to share" and the features of those "dreamed ones" repeat once and again, and again and again...
Then i wonder why is it too hard for almost everyone to find "the right one"... some find them... but they don't feel like they deserve them... some don't see them even when they're next to them... so it's kinda funny, ironic... on the other hand, everyone has an ideal, but is everyone the ideal's ideal?... may be that's the problem... aiming high, without being ready for it... and that's how we miss, we lose, we face we weren't good enough for it... and most of the time, people chooses for staying where they're instead of changing those things that didn't help to get their goals, even so, they don't change the target... and obviously, it won't work... so that's how people ends frustrated and angry with life, but deep inside they know they aren't angry with life, they're angry with themselves... and even when they have all the tools to change it, they don't because "it's better to stay on the known and 'safe' side instead of breaking one's self-set limits"...
Currently listening:
Lullaby
By: Shawn Mullins
Well, this fella has been going out with a girl since then, and things haven't been working out as well as both of them wanted, they've realised none of them want to "lose this time", she doesn't want to admit they're in something more than "going out" (even when she acts like she wants it) and he refuses to admit he's thinking much further than just a "bf/gf status". But they're stuck with each other... to be rejected by the other and swallow that loneliness (again)
It's almost like the song says, they're under each other's thumb... conformism, restless conformism, preffering a "better than nothing" than being on themselves, forget about a "good shag" almost every night and someone who'll hold them when they're sleeping... sounds almost sweet, isn't it? but what if there are a lot of things unsaid of if your partner doesn't want to change things that hurt you and themselves too?... as far as i know (and he realised it too) it's like a hideout from all those things they don't want to accept of the world, and basically, of themselves.
So that's how i've become some sort of psychologist, without anyone's permission but my own, listening, asking and realising once again that people, boys and girls, women and men are looking basically for the same pack "someone to share" and the features of those "dreamed ones" repeat once and again, and again and again...
Then i wonder why is it too hard for almost everyone to find "the right one"... some find them... but they don't feel like they deserve them... some don't see them even when they're next to them... so it's kinda funny, ironic... on the other hand, everyone has an ideal, but is everyone the ideal's ideal?... may be that's the problem... aiming high, without being ready for it... and that's how we miss, we lose, we face we weren't good enough for it... and most of the time, people chooses for staying where they're instead of changing those things that didn't help to get their goals, even so, they don't change the target... and obviously, it won't work... so that's how people ends frustrated and angry with life, but deep inside they know they aren't angry with life, they're angry with themselves... and even when they have all the tools to change it, they don't because "it's better to stay on the known and 'safe' side instead of breaking one's self-set limits"...
Currently listening:
Lullaby
By: Shawn Mullins
# posted by Greta @ 15:09 
